I'm here, I'm alive, I'm excited, I'm scared, I'm trained, I'm sick, I'm going for it.
I arrived here in St. George late last night and have had a very restless night of sleep, unfortunately I have an awful head cold. Ideal, no bit really is race prep ever ideal?
The reality of it all is I have done the training, all of it!! I am ready or so people keep I telling me. To be very real, I am scared. Somehow I am having a hard time wrapping my brain around running what I should be capable of for 26.2 miles. I am hoping to just let it be, let go of fear and just run. I am hoping that being here and relaxing for a couple of days will clear my head and that I will find a place of calm confidence. I know I run my best when I take all the pressure off and just run so that is what I am trying to do.
Not sure why exactly I am feeling pressure but it is there. Never in a million years did I think I would ever be capable of running a marathon at a sub 3 pace. I guess I should just go out there and be. Be still, be calm, be confident, be believing, be a little scared, just be...
Here's to hoping that I can kick this cold in the next few days. The goal sub 3, according to my coach lower than I was thinking. She believes, I'm trying!!
See you on the flip side.